C'est ici, où j'écris.

trust me, darling.

I Can Love, Enormously.

Tuesday, November 20, 2012


Tonight it felt like yesterday.  It's moments like these that make me realize how beautiful it is to be a human.  And in these moments, I've never been more sure that I exist.  I've never felt more alive. 

I could feel the elements congregate around me to bear me up, holding my heart in place so as it wouldn't fall through my chest cavity. 

this song is the vehicle that transports me back to an unmarred, vivid event. I don't need a pensieve, like Dumbledore.  I have it better.
About /// Today





Words clicked and clucked.

Monday, October 29, 2012

  Maybe not today, or next year for that matter
will I hope that he sees this raw uncooked batter.
  These words of advice from someone much younger
not written to be labeled as one's power hunger.
  Instead I write because truth does exist,
I want to show him in poem, instead of using my fist. 
  Afterall he's a guy, human with pride and such
and its hard to change someone or convince them of stuff. 
  But I don't want to be accountable for not being brave
enough to transmit the truth to him via radio wave. 


Welp, sometimes I'm too serious for my own good, and sometimes I'm serious and its for my good. In this case, I plead the fifth. Hey look, I wrote a Ghazal.  Gah.  What's a Ghazal?  This is:

A short lyrical poem that arose in Urdu. It is between 5 and 15 couplets long. Each couplet contains its own poetic thought but is linked in rhyme that is established in the first couplet and continued in the second line of each pair. The lines of each couplet are equal in length. Themes are usually connected to love and romance. The closing signature often includes the poet's name or allusion to it.

Kiss You Forever

Friday, October 26, 2012


What are you passionate about?
  • Chobani Mango yogurt
  • my daily goals
  • massages
  • neuroscience
  • mesomorphs
  • Voltaire
  • Finding a social media issue for my upcoming 10 page paper that I want to dominate
  • writing
  • my music, as usual, because its flawless
  • buying some of my favorite clothes online, I didn't know I liked shopping until I discovered Amazon
  • my future career, because its awesome
  • America
I absolutely [love] this song.  Summertime in October? Yes, please. 

Poolside - Kiss You Forever

(their other stuff is worth looking at too)
together everyday
forever
free 
always every day
our world is a game

oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh

I want to kiss you forever, forever, forever, forever yeah...
I want to kiss you forever, just want to kiss you forever.

Thursday, October 25, 2012


J'aime cet homme. Il n'est pas "l'homme universel" mais il a l'esprit.  Et l'esprit est quatre choses que on a besoin si tu veux exister.  Je voudrais exister, sourtout avec l'esprit comme lui. 

Have You Got It In You?

Friday, October 5, 2012



Yes, I do. 
And so do you. 

Imogen Heap - Headlock

No One Likes A Sequel.

Monday, September 17, 2012

Especially one involving my precious right leg.

     But it's true, I'll admit.  I can't deny this reality.  Life's started the hardness, pain, humiliation, and temporary damnation all over today. I'm reliving my nightmare, though it was once real life.  But I know I'll live through it.  It's not the end of the world, things will get better soon. Other people are going through harder things than me right now, and they too are hidden under a blanket in public. 
      I wonder what the guy sitting next to me at this BYU's computer lab is going through right now.  Maybe a death, maybe a break up, maybe a fight, or maybe absolutely nothing and his life is perfect and he is happy blah blah blah. 
        That's what we all tend to assume about everyone else, right?  Well people, 'tis false doctrine.  Now go smile at someone and do something nice for someone - who knows, you might just be what they need right now. 
       Like how I needed my mom's phone call a few minutes ago.  And how I need to go to class and love learning and ignore all dwellings on the pain and stares.
         Anyways, here's a confession: sometimes I write poetry.  It's what comes out of my thoughts and begs expression. Then I write it down/type it out/rap it to a nearby friend. Then it feels like I just sneezed the most satisfying sneeze.  That's called human expression people.  Its refreshing.  Even better than Lemonade.

9/17/12  Torn Leaf

Today I received news that changes my life
    The significance sinks in and blinds me with strife.
Does anyone know the importance of today?
    Of this stale blow of air that breathes hope away?
Not the man walking next to me or the girl walking by.
    While I’m clenching my bag firmly, not wanting to cry.

I can be strong. Is all that is said.
    over and over again in my head.

Lana Del Rey & Sami De Roi

Friday, August 17, 2012


    I love that both Lana Del Rey & I exist in the same generation.  Her songs could very well be my National Anthem.  (Although I don't recommend listening to that particular song, I've forgiven her for it and so should you).  I've had a really great week at work and in Arizona with my Man, freshly returned Best Friend, and my amazing Family.  To accompany this American dream that is my reality, my week's playlist is as follows: Off to the Races, Dark Paradise, Blue Jeans, Born to Die, Video Games, Radio, and of course some tracks from Sting, Metric, and Ellie Goulding. Thank you Lana Del Rey for your voice and your personal translation of life into music. 
Here's a free taste: 
 Off to the Races - Lana Del Rey

Voyage to France

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

IT WAS AMAZING, the French woman inside of me was finally liberated.   
Je t'aime France, et tout les choses françaises.
Chateau de Fontainebleau
Click here to view the Photo Album, Photo Book, and Website I created to document our voyage à Paris.  C'est s'appelle "Trop La Classe" parce que...c'était. 

Taking a Nap at our Hotel, "Salut Jet Laggation"

Bordeaux. "And then she suddenly became a peachy, glazed dessert."
I took this.  And this happened.  All are true. 

The Moulin Rouge.  I felt scandalous just taking a picture of it. 
The Eiffel Tower & I. I then realized that love can take building form. 
Sacre Coeur.  I can never spell heart right in French.  I must not have one. "Il  était bondé . Là, à l' église."

Gifted A Body

Friday, July 27, 2012

     My goal for this week was to do one creative thing a day whether it be write song lyrics, a poem, design and record a new style, or make art with photography.  Today, I decided to write a poem because its definition fits well with the circumstance.  Topher went into surgery this morning, the surgery we had all been anticipating, the surgery that is most abrasive to the body.  Topher's health has been bad enough so for him to go into this surgery made me nervous.  I've assisted with surgeries, shoot, I've done surgeries before and I know how invasive they can be and how damaging they are.  Topher's poor body.  Anyways, because of all this I fasted yesterday and felt loads better about it as I naturally should.  Thank you for the opportunity to use tools like fasting to bring faith, peace, and assurance.

  Here's L'Expression Créative Du Jour:



Le Poém, Les Corps Un Cadeaux

His frail body went into surgery today.
His tight muscles gripped, his skin fell away
Under the knife. His cells they would raid.
Invasive procedure with scalpel and blade.

Scared, apprehensive, worried: I won't be.
I fasted yesterday for this same surgery.
A healing will happen, as we once were told.
Now gifted a young body, that's no longer old. 

by Sami

dedicated to my brother, Topher

Here we are today, previewing the rocks in Fontainebleau, France before my rock climbing adventure - deux semaines.  I’m so stoked. You should be too. 
et voila:
Clubbed to Death - Rob Dougan  
Great Rock Climbing Song.

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