Who Fuses the Music

Especially one involving my precious right leg.

     But it's true, I'll admit.  I can't deny this reality.  Life's started the hardness, pain, humiliation, and temporary damnation all over today. I'm reliving my nightmare, though it was once real life.  But I know I'll live through it.  It's not the end of the world, things will get better soon. Other people are going through harder things than me right now, and they too are hidden under a blanket in public. 

      I wonder what the guy sitting next to me at this BYU's computer lab is going through right now.  Maybe a death, maybe a break up, maybe a fight, or maybe absolutely nothing and his life is perfect and he is happy blah blah blah. 
        That's what we all tend to assume about everyone else, right?  Well people, 'tis false doctrine.  Now go smile at someone and do something nice for someone - who knows, you might just be what they need right now. 
       Like how I needed my mom's phone call a few minutes ago.  And how I need to go to class and love learning and ignore all dwellings on the pain and stares.

         Anyways, here's a confession: sometimes I write poetry.  It's what comes out of my thoughts and begs expression. Then I write it down/type it out/rap it to a nearby friend. Then it feels like I just sneezed the most satisfying sneeze.  That's called human expression people.  Its refreshing.  Even better than Lemonade.

9/17/12  Torn Leaf

Things I've Learned From Life Since My Right Knee...Happened:

     1. Being alone is not as bad of a thing as I had imagined it to be in my head.

     2. Be sober, Listen more.

     3. Rely on the Lord.

     4. Sometimes in life you really do need help, you can't do it on your own, and that's okay.

     5. People care, genuinely, way more often than you'd expect.

     6. Don't try to make a deal with God, bargaining when you have no leverage is just a bad idea.

     7. Smiling, despite conditions, makes life better.

     8. Be careful what you laugh at.

     9. Good Sleep saturates your day life.

   10. Submission & Sacrifice are two of life's most brilliant Teachers.

Here you go:  Lupe Fiasco - Kick Push